Hi. I would like to welcome everyone to my very first blog.  It took me a while to get here. I was stuck in the material world and then realized I was STARVING!  Everyday was the same.  I felt like how I feel when I go through the cable channels.  NOTHING is on.  Like looking into the fridge for the 139th time thinking something more enticing will magically appear to satiate whatever hunger I haven’t yet been able to put my  finger on…or admitted to myself I so disparately wanted to taste.  I AM starving. But it’s not the material world’s fault. It’s not anyone’s fault- if I’m going to be real here. And that’s what this blog is all about. THE REAL DEAL, HOLY FIELD!  Sorry. I couldn’t help myself.  And yes, pun intended! This is my journal. My inner most thoughts.  I am learning how to feed myself in a world that is just now learning which seeds to plant.  It’s lonely making dinner for one especially when you have this nonsensical desire to feed others. But first a warning.  Anyone with a fragile ego or weak stomach should probably stop reading now! I can be a real asshole. I’m not an asshole…or at least I don’t think that I am. I will leave that up to you.